After High School

    High school was a different experience for me. It had some ups and downs but the over all experience was great. I enjoyed my time here. I will miss the tight net connection that I had with some of the teachers. I will also miss being able to make good impressions on the incoming students.

     I think that I will miss the teachers most of all because they put up with my drama. I think that high school is the start of  the real world with out all the responsibility. I will also miss the conversations in the hall ways , because they were super funny for no reason. I will miss you High School and good luck to the rest of you guys.

Woah

     Sometimes you just got to go with the flow. When things don't go your way it's okay sometimes. I had to learn in this past year is that life doesn't go your way.  You can only have so much control on your own life and the rest is up to supernatural forces. I always try to live my life the way that I  want to. I know that I want certain things and when I don't get them I do get upset. I am not a selfish person but I do need to put myself first. Putting yourself first is important to me because I think if you don't put yourself first you may get upset and hate what's going on.

     You know what I really dislike. I don't like it when a guy has a girlfriend and he talks to you and think that you want try to talk to him about her. We aren't dating on another but I know that we aren't just friends either. I lose respect for that person because, they are cheating even though you don't want to be apart of it but you can't help yourself. You want that person but you don't want to be apart of the hurt that is going to be caused to the other person. If I could stop this I would but I am in to deep over my head. Now when it comes to marriage it is wrong to mess with a married man. Then you think to yourself what if his wife never finds out. I doesn't matter because you will start growing feeling for that person and she will find out sooner or later. You don't want that type of baggage.

Summer Plans

     This summer is coming up too fast for me. I want to hopefully have a job once the summer hits. I think that I am a hard worker when I have a clear mind. I know that I do want to go to college but I do want to work and make my own money. I want to be able to provide for myself  so I can get my life into order. This summer I want to have my own money to spend it how I please. I am going to prepare myself this upcoming fall for school. I am going to make sure that I am in great financial standing and that I am ready to get my education started. I also plan on saving as much money that I can. I however, do plan on having as much fun as I possible can.

     I also will be making sure that I save as much money as I can so I can move out. I want to have my own place so that I can get some freedom and responsibilities of my own. I want to be able to come and go as I please without having to ask to leave. I want to be able to make my own choices and live my life the way I want to. I want to be able to learn from my own mistakes. I also want to be able to gain as much experience that I can.

Now what

    I can never understand why people always like to be in others business  Why is it so hard to stay out of other lives. Is it hard because there is nothing better to do in our own lives or is it that we are jealous of the things that we do not have. I somehow believe that if women take care of themselves first and then worry about others we can eliminate most of the drama at hand. When a person stays to themselves it reduces drama. Sometimes it is very had to ignore the issues but it is best to try to ignore them. It seems like no one really likes to ignore it because it is so entertaining.
   
     My personal opinion is that drama makes people look stupid. I do not have time for drama and  I do not want drama in my life at all. I think that if we want to be treated a certain way we should act they way that we want to be treated. If you act like a drama starter then when some says you started some conflict you can't get upset ,because you started some drama once before. I know for myself I try to avoid as much drama as I can. I also think we can reduce the amount of deaths annually if we stop all of this drama nonsense.

True or Not

 It is hard to think that at the end of time, you have not made a difference. You have not shared your knowledge with anyone, and you are not as important as you thought you were. Maybe no one really cares what you think after all. It's like when someone asks you  for your opinion, but they don't want to listen to you. I am sick and tired of trying to help people out who really don't care about what I have to say. It is so hard to try to get to know people who have their mind set on being friends with fake people. I don't know how some people can act like you don't even exist. Sometimes I wonder how life would be if I wasn't here. I think a lot of the things that have happened could have been avoided if I wasn't here. Some days I do feel like when people say, "Why are you  even here". I'm like, they have a point. Why am I here?  What is my purpose in life? Do  I have a purpose  It is hard when people act like they are not the issue. They act as if they are not a factor in your behavior. If you treat me poorly, of course I'm going to act a certain way towards you. When you try to be nice it seems to never be enough. Sometimes I tried to be nice, but since no one really respects me, I don't care about being nice anymore. I don't like it when they run me over so I vow to myself to not let anyone tear me down no matter what. Then they say that you are not trying to be social with them but when you do they don't want to talk to you. You can never win for losing. When will you really know when people are really willing to hear you out. It is not  good to cover up issues that you are having , because they might come back and bite you in the butt.

All Around Me

All Around Me

This song is my go to song. This song make me want to scream and yell at the top of my lungs. It makes me feel like there is some type of purpose and that there is someone for me. I have been in love with this song  since I first heard it on Kiss FM in 2009.  My favorite thing to sing in this son is the part where she says "

Take my hand, I give it to you Now you owe me, all I am,You said you would never leave me
I believe you, I believe I can feel you all around me, Thickening the air I'm breathing, Holding on to what I'm feeling, Savoring this heart that's healed". This is the part of the song were I lose it and act like I am going crazy. I most likely listen to this song at least twice a day. I also love the video. In the video their playing the song and rocking out while the walls are  pouring with different color paints. They are all wearing white cloths except for the lead singer  Lacey but they all  get covered with paint. This would be very awesome to experience in the real world. I love this band and I wouldn't have made it through some of the things that I have if it wasn't for her and her band. This song change the way I express myself . It is easier to express my self through singing her song and dancing around than it is to say something to someone.

 

Chatting Online

   Chatting online is a very fun experience, but it is very dangerous  at the same time. You never really know who you are talking to unless you have met them person to person. I have noticed during my time chatting online guys can be very crude and disrespectful towards women.  Women can also be very innapropprate as well. I think the women should stop selling themselves short.  Chatting online is a great way to make friends, but there are certain things that you shouldn't share. If you don't know a person, you should't give them your personal information including your email, phone number, and address. I know that there are safe ways to chat, but most people don't do it.
   When you meet someone online and you start to like them, there are always what if's. What if he doesn't really like me? What if they are a killer in real life? When is the right time to meet this person? Is it possible to find love online? How do I know if this person is real and not someone else? When you are online, it is hard to tell. Social media applications are the fastest growing form of technology in the nation.  Social media is a great thing when you use it wisely. When you misuse it consequences may follow. When you are online it is also important that you watch what you say because someone is always watching.